no what you want it to be, what it is

if you suspend something in space can you also suspend it in time?

bags of water suspended in a doorway, if this create such a specific, distorted image, along with the meaning of water that usually moves, measures time and motion...a snapshot of something in time/motion distorted by the trapping of time and motion.

today the snow looked like a recycled, sifting, maybe vibrating curtain, like everything was coming up from the ground, down from the sky, meeting in the middle and hovering there

it's not just old, it's really weird.

i wrote this down thinking it would lead me back to a train of thought but it didn't. where did those things end up?

i feel this constant pull of push (dissatisfaction) really never satiated by one decision or another
balancing the mind with everything else?

ah I think I remember, whirlwind art history talk, artists like Manet that I never really looked back to but I'm starting to want to brush up on all that...like that picnic with the giant woman in the background, all of this information is more valuable than I counted it for. I think I'm going to get my old books out again, plus I have to place myself within the context of other artists for class.

so it's been all about the senses

the senses are basically communication/relationships.

we've been navigating a stage set with hugely magnified eyes, and drawing the space between myself and another with string then we pulled and pushed and stretched and finally released ourselves as the supports of a tangled bridge.

Then emily traced my eyeballs moving with shadows and crayons onto the wall, a giant hand clouding my face then revealing a scrawled map.


a room became an experience of physical sensations. it made everyone laugh and smile which i thought was kind of incredible. i know what it is like to sit in a vessel full of tiny static, moving particles. the static electricity made amazing thing happen--floating,flying through the sir climbing up walls sticking to posts crawling over arms and legs